sometimes i wish you knew what it felt like to be me.
ive made mistakes, haven’t you? ive said things i wish i could take back, but everyone does! ive done things i regret, but why regret when you cant change the past? but just becase you cant change the past, doesnt mean you cant change your future.
i’ve changed my life i’ve learned from my mistakes. i’ve forgave the ones that have hurt me and have said sorry to the ones who i’ve hurt. in life you have to just live one day at a time and not look back because you cant change yesterday, but you still have tomorrow. there will come a time in life when you will want to change not because you have to, but because you dont like who you’ve been.
people dont realize how bad words hurt. but ive learned you cant let those people bother you. theres always gonna be that someone who.doesnt like you. but all you can do is pray for them. when people say something about you just take it has a reason to try harder and prove them alll wrong. you have to face your fears to live your dreams and thats just the truth be yourself, be real to yourself, stand up for what you believe, have faith in your self. and know that you are beautiful. just because your not a size 0 doesnt mean your ugly its society thats ugly. i never say.anything about.anyone, becase you.dont know what there going through, i always try to compliment someone and see them smile because they deserve to<3
When You Were Mine.
Tonight was the first time i had seen you in almost a year, i saw your eyes and i fell right back into your arms. It was like nothing ever happened. Then i felt your touch and i wondered why things had to go left instead of right. i mean i loved you, but you loved her instead . What was i doing wrong? was i not pretty enough? was she prettier? what’s she have that i didn’t? i asked myself all these questions, at the time things felt so right. Why is it after everything you put me through it’s still you i want? when you told me you missed me tonight my heart sunk, when you hugged me goodbye all i wanted to do was cry, because to me it was just like a replay in my head of the time you told me you were done, and that it wasnt me you wanted anymore.
I didn’t want to let go tonight hugging under the bleachers, i missed your touch, i missed your body next to mine, i missed being called baby, but more then anything i miss being called yours, and miss saying your mine. It reminded me of all the times we’d hug in that very spot after every one of your football games.
I still feel the hurt, the pain, see the scars, and remember how hard I took everything, and now that a year has passed and things are just now starting to fall into place, your still there, your still the one i want, and your still the only one i see myself with. Yes I’ve tried other relationships but they didn’t work out and definitely did not feel like we did.
I still read the note you last wrote me and all i can do is smile it said “i was the type of girl you wanted to spend the rest of your life with”. it made me feel on top of the world. it made me think that for once in my life that you were gonna prove to me that all guys aren’t the same.
even after all the tears, all the hurt, and all the memories that never seem to fade away its still you i want.
i misss you,
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"Yes, my mind was wandering. I wished I were there with someone who could bring peace to my heart someone with whom I could spend a little time without being afraid that i would lose him the next day. With that reassurance, the time would pass more slowly. We could be silent for a while because we’d know we had the rest of our lives together for conversation. I wouldn’t have to worry about serious matters, about difficult decisions and hard words."
-(Source: jorrty)
